its funny how i fear how others with judge me way before i even fear or even think about how God will judge me. This reminds me of this past sunday school, and how we learned about the Rahab in the Joshua chapter 2, and how she did what was right for God and she was faithful and fearful of God and not her own country's people. I still dont understand why i am so afraid of how others will see me. I get so caught up in trying to perfect my life for them that i forget about even truly communicating with God. I still fear that people think my relationship is a stumbling block to me. I want them to know its not but i feel like they just generalized the one or two times they see me on campus with jon and they go like oooo shes always with him. i do spend time with other people. i meet up with my friends, i meet up with my accountability partner , my life isnt off balance. i try to balance it. i need to work on just discerning what is right and what is wrong. i cant let other peoples little opinions effect me. or maybe i am just going crazy and being worried about everything.