"I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go.." - Genesis 28:15

God you already stated that you will be with us forever, wherever I go, but why do I still fear about my future. I fear so much for my apartment, I fear the judgement of my friends on my relationship, I fear men so much more than I fear you. Its so hard to let go of my problems because I fear what you are going to do next. I dont trust in you, I dont trust in your love. God please help me to put you first, to worship you and only you and not idolize any acceptance or security.

I think fearing people's judgement has led me to be more MIA. I dont meet up with people because I am afraid that if I do share about my sins and flaws, they will judge me. I have been in so much denial. I tell myself I am too lazy to meet up or that I am busy or too far away from people, but instead I am just afraid. God please just take my life and let your will be done.