i.am.so.miserable.here.

gotta keep my head up :)

today my dog couldnt make it up the stairs. he fell a few times already and this time he wasnt willing to go upstairs. i had to carry him all the way up. im not ready yet. im not ready for Teddie to die. i know its coming soon, but i havent really prepared myself. i want more time with him :(

why cant i ever find peace? :( God please give me peace in my heart i really need it

tank is officially not full anymore

i want to go to the beach! i want to surf! i want to buy a surfboard! i want to get tanned :)

man why do i fear so much of being judged by man. i can barely accept the fact that one sister who i had a miscommunication with followed me on my tumblr. it made me so hesitant and just afraid. i dont know what i am afraid of. wait yea i do, i think im just scared of rebuilding that friendship. im afraid of unspoken tension and more miscommunications. God please help me to have peace in my heart. I know you can do wonderful things, please mend my heart up. Take away all my bitterness and jealousy. God please help me, i need you.