Yup everything is my fault. Im the one with si many flaws. So many issues and so many emotions. It all comes back to it being my fault. I can never be the one sad or upset or dissappointed cuz it always somehow ends up my fault. I did nothing wrong yet i have to apologize for being so different being so sensitive and not being strong. Definitely have to say sorry for other ppls faults too, cuz duhhh its my fault. Always ends up me saying sorry so u can feel better and you jnow what? You actually go along with it. Wow really u think its soo my fault that this or that happened?

Im sorry im a girl
Im sorry i cry
Im sorry i get hurt
Im sorry i need people to comfort me
Im sorry for being able to be frustrated and upset in my life
Im sorry for not being strong enough
Im sorry for being a different person than you
Im sorry for having this type of personality
Im sorry that you have to be tired out from dating me
Im sorry for just being me

Sometimes all a sad girl needs is an ear to listen to her, a shoulder to cry on, and someone to tell her its okay. We are already sad enough, we seriously do not need any more lectures or comments that hurt us and tell us that we are wrong and weak and we need to fix ourselves. Js comfort us. Js be there. Js listen.

i know i should be forgiving and fine with it but this makes me mad. Like seriously there is a thing called privacy. i know i shouldn't be upset or frustrated i don't even know what i'm feeling. but its really weird when the notes you write your feelings to for your boyfriend is read by his sister. so freaking awkward. like those things that are written down are feelings and thoughts that i never tell anyone but my boyfriend cuz duhh its written to him? ugh iono

recently realized that i dont know who i am. i know my name and all that but i dont know who God wants me to be. I was thinking the other day, and realized that the way i have been acting is just a copy of someone else, someone i want to be. i want to be like that girl, so i talk like her. i want to be like her too, so i change the way i talk or dress. i cant find my own identity, and honestly it scares me. i want to be me, but i dont know WHAT or WHO is me. i feel like the real me isnt pleasing or doenst bring joy to others, and it makes me even more frustrated with myself. God please show me how to just be me, and to shape me into the girl you want me to be. Let me be happy with who i am and not pursue another personality or character.

ugh. i screwed up. that feeling where u want to just want to go back and take everything back. i feel so horrible and guilty. i cant even provide the basic support and encouragement. im horrible. i realized i am so selfish and cruel. :( poopcakes i hate myself

我想帶你去一個很好的餐館因為我想給你一個很好的記憶, 因為我想讓你知道我真的很喜歡你。 can you atleast告訴我你很開心很感謝我這樣做。 我 gave up 逛街買東西應為我要save u for 那家餐館。 okay, 我不可以在這裡寫太多。

Gooood byeeeeee dreamssssss