:( i waited all day just to talk and be happy with you! I missed you all day and the only thing that i looked forward to was seeing you and laughing and talking with you. But obviously things didnt happen that way. It was my fault that i got impatient and irritated but i was really trying to stay calm and loving. If you can see how much i try to work on it in my heart. I dont say it out but i do try. Ive been reading and reading and praying to be a better godly gf so i can serve you. It hurts me so much to see things become like this. Its so not fair. I really tried. I really do. Its already hard enough that you are so far. Why cant you just do your best and comfort me instead of leaving me just like that. It really makes me want to give up. It doesnt feel like its worth it. Im here putting in so much effort and love and it doesnt pay off. Im always ending up sad :( what can i do now?