Zoning out

theres always a limit in studying. my bio midterm is coming up on wednesday and i just have everything piled on top of me. i want to just devote my time to just studying bio but i also have chemistry homework to do and then i have chem lab and then i have writing. i want to have more time and energy to just finish everything! ahhhh i cant wait for the weekend even though my weekend just ended 23 minutes, and its officially monday. i really need strength just to carry out my daily life. hahaha i am zoning out and i dont know what is going because i just want to slip into my lil shell :D haha

my life is a tornado

Biology might not be my thing anymore. After receiving both my midterms back from my bio 97 genetics class and my ochem , i doubt this is my path to take. I feel like i studied so hard yet the result is never what i wanted. I want to do better but i dont even know what i am doing wrong when im studying. i seriously put all my effort in ochem but still it came out as a bummer. i really dont know what to do anymore, if i am trying this hard to get a descent grade and i still get a ____, then what can i do to get even a higher grade. omgah i dont even know what to write down. im so lost and i feel so helpless! Maybe God is trying to tell me to change my major. I have been thinking about it, but i am so stubborn that i want to prove to just life that i can do well as a bio major. maybe not anymore. I dont know where my college career is headed to. But on the bright side, i became a college buddy in Best Buddies club and my buddy is bryan. Maybe this is a sign from God that i should really change my major to psych because its something i enjoy and want to pursue in.

9.30.10

:( i dont even know how to describe today. First day of lab is always crazy so of course im already freaking out. Then with the lack of sleep i feel super out of it especially when the TA was describing the procedure at 8 am !!! Luckily i finished early and finally got back to my apt and just took a nap. Talking to rachel was really nice, just to have a sister there and to just encourage each other. Just praying for each other and sharing our praises and problems was definitely good today. Then i had to rush to finish my dumb writing 39c homework. i seriously hate going to that class. but oh well i guess i have to endure it for one quarter. After the 1.5 hour class, i finally had room to just relax and breathe. I went to the target run with aacf people and grab some stuff i dont even need but i just neede to shop to release my crankyness :) good outcome!!! then we went to lollicup to get free drinks. ~yum~ finally i ended my day with some soon tofu! delicious!
such a long day and honestly i feel like everything just like piled on top of me, and its just so frustrating. im just human, i cant do everything! there is just a certain limit of what i can take in. I wish i can do all the things that is placed in front of me but sometimes i need a break to and i make mistakes too. AHHHHHHHHH