Final Stretch

Today i finished two of my three finals. The first one was intro to crim and the other one was Psych 11B. Both were okay with a few questions i wasnt too sure about. i hope i did well, i really need to raise my GPA. But all i can do now is just study hard for my last final which is on thursday at 8am for my psych 11a class. After that i am done! i cant wait to just relax at home and just to sleep in and play with my dogs.

Lately i have been getting really irritated by jon. i just get mad at him for small things or when things dont go well. I wish i can change that and i know i need to be more loving and caring but i rarely show it. Im selfish and i want everything to go my way. Hes been so patient and i need to appreciate that. Last quarter we were reading lovedare together, and on one of the days, it told us to leave the disappreciation room and go to the appreciation room. I really need to work on it and get less grumpy with him. God please help me learn to love and put others first. :) good night

thankful :)

I am so thankful for Jon who always points me back to God. I know I have so many faults and flaws, but thankyou for liking me for who i am. Thank you for being patient with me, and loving me. I know these past months, i have been falling away from God at times, but i didnt realize it till these past two nights. I am glad you are always here to contradict my crazy worldy views and tell me my desires arent glorifying God. I cant wait to see what God has in store for us :D

manga has sucked the life out of you.
i feel replaced :(

finally realized how much it sucks to be accused and judged differently from what your intentions are. i wish you can realize that i was telling you things and working things out of love and not to be mean or judgmental. but i guess you will never see what my true intentions were. its okay, i guess i can just suck up my pride and surrender to this.

bullets of words

who knew that one sentence can hurt someone so much. even simple words can be like shooting someone in the heart. once you pull that trigger, and shoot, you cant go back in time to take it all back. the bullet is already out and injuring. i never knew the power of words into today. just one statement can crush my hearts. its all shattered and no matter how much glue and effort i put in to fix it, it leaves a scar. another scar. how much more can my heart take?

I dont know what to do anymore. I tried and even though i saod i would give up i didnt. I know youre hurt but just cheer up. I tried all that i know to start a convo , i said i gave up on you but i called you because i know i can never give up on you. I hope you realize this and know that just because there are mean and horrible things in the world doesnt mean no one loves you. I want to show you my love and care . I hope you realize this someday :)

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas !!!

Happy Birthday Jesus.

This year instead of waiting anxiously of what i am going to get from my friends and parents, i want to focus my joy in the birth of Jesus Christ. Over the years, the real reason to celebrate has drastically changed, and people are more concerned about giving each other presents that truly celebrating what God has given to us. I want to not only give my praise to Jesus but also giving His love and joy to everyone around me. Keep me accountable :D