God is so Amazing

So i just got off the phone with my grandma. and she told me that she started to go to sunday school. My grandma was a buddhist all her life. she grew up in a very tradition chinese family where they would put incense to their ancestors. A few years ago, my aunt took my grandmother to church, and the reason my grannie went was to get free food. she went back every week to just get food. however over these few years, she started to listen more to the sermons and she even kept the Bible next to her bed. Whether she read it or not, i am not sure. This past year, my grandma started to worry about my grandpa. Hes a very stubborn man and still puts incense to our ancestors. She told my mom that she was very worried about his life after death. she kept on praying for him and also she told my mom that she prays for my family.
and now she goes to sunday school !!!! im so happy for her. its weird, i never thought she would ever devote her life to Christ. God definitely makes the impossible possible. Hearing this from my grandmother, really motivates me to really reach out to people in china this year. no matter who they are or what they believe in before, there is always a chance to show them God's love.

kids!!!

Today was day 3 for VBS. I have the first and second graders and wow they are a handful sometimes. First it was hard to just to start a conversation and keep it going with them because some of the kids wouldnt really answer. But by today we were able to joke and laugh together. After just a few days, i realized that i really love kids ( not in a creepy way) despite their craziness and random sugar highs, i still love them as if they were my own little brothers and sisters. im starting to doubt my success in the path to med school, but im really hoping that God will place me somewhere surrounded by children.

Principle of Dating Wisely

So last night, Jon, our youth pastor taught us about how to date wisely and i want to write down these few points so i can always look back and not forget what he has taught us:

1) Choose Christ-loving over Christ-less
2) Choose Character over compatibility
3) Choose Purity over Privacy
4) Choose Confirmation over Concealment
5) Choose Clarity over Confusion
6) Choose Commitment over Capriciousness
7) Choose Contentment over Complaining
8) Choose Selflessness over Selfishness

Bittersweet

Less than a month and imma be heading to Anhui. Im actually really excited yet im starting to feel that i am not that prepared. There seems just so much piling on top of me. i know i have my summer to prep but it seems like time is just flying by way to fast! I am also very nervous about VBS. i feel like i havnt really prepped that much. I know i should trust in God. but its just really stressing me out.

Summer i love you

YAY im finally out of school! im overjoyed.
I do miss my irvine friends and i wish i can just go back to just play but im happy spending time with my family and beinng able to laugh and share my joy. I have been sleeping for atleast 10 hours each day, and man i feel good. I also started to run again. I ran twice today, and each time is easier than the previous one. Slowly i am gaining back my running schedule. Today i am thankful for such great weather and motivation my friend (ET) gave me when i didnt want to run in the morning. i cant wait to run, play in irvine tomorrow. its going to be fun!

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Dear Heavenly Father,

I know you have made me in your image, and no matter what others say, i am loved by you. Please give me strength to finish my final strong. Lord, please let me be content with who i am. I have struggling with what you have given me, and i need to appreciate all that you have given me. Thankyou for blessing me with friends that always bring joy to my heart, but God please dont let me feel compared to them and let me be myself.

Amen.

ER the night bfore my MATH FINAL!!! :(

Last night, i went to gabes to eat pasta. It was soo yummie!!!!! But a few minutes after dinner, i started to cough alot, and my throat itched like crazy. First i thought i was sick, but it got really weird, so i concluded that it was some food allergy reaction. Maybe it was the costco meatballs or spices, or whatever that was in the sauce. I went to the guys apt. to grab some allergy relief medicine ( curtis got a shot glass for me to drink water from... soo curtis). we waited for awhile, and things just seems the same. When we went to drop something at andrea's, i started to loose my voice. Then my friends decided to take me to the hospital. So i was finally admitted to the ER at around 12. My parents freaked out and drove to irvine. They gave me all these drugs through an IV, and jabbed a epi pen in my thigh .. YAY fun stuff! they placed me on a heart monitor, so i had to wear those funky looking gowns. where people can see your butt if your not wearing pants, but i was so whewww! The doc first wanted to observe me on drugs for like 2 hours, but they decided it was best if i stayed till the morning, which i did do. My parents finally left at like 3:45am, and man oh man it was so boring. i tried studying for math, but it was really hard so i decided to sleep.

I finally fell asleep around 4 but this dude woke me up for an x-ray. then KO-ed right when i got back into bed. Another doc came in and checked up on me. He decided to call in a throat/esophagus specialist to take a look at my throat. I had a stupid tube thing go down my nose and into my throat. OMGAH IT WAS LIKE THE WORST FEELING EVER!! EVER EVER EVER! it was sooo guhross :( finally, i was discharged at 7am. i have such bad luck, i have like back to back finals these two days, and its the two most important subject! RAWR.

But definitely praise God that i am fine now. I am glad that He provided me with friends that would force me to go to the hospital and keep me company :D THANKS!!!

Happiness

This last quarter of my freshmen year, God has definitely provided me with a lot of joy. Its funny because even when i am having a bad day, He shows me something that totally brightens my day. And at times i feel totally discouraged and down, i would somehow smile despite the dark cloud over my head.

God, thank you so much for bringing me so much joy. You know my feelings and you know what is best for me. Thank you for blessing me with my family, my friends, and my fellowship. Love you<3

Accountability Partners

I did not realize how important accountability partners are until this year. In our freshmen small group, we would have partners for a few weeks. At first, i didnt take it very seriously. and i totally did not contact my first partner. As the quarter flew by, i grew to take accountability more seriously. I was finally shown how important it is to share, pray, and encourage one another. And even though sometimes it may be hard for both sides, it is still neccessary to point out thinngs that may be hurting someones path towards God. I thank God that this year He really provided me with the girls i have and that i have really grown to know them and love them as my sisters. I will definitely miss my small group, and i am super excited for next year.

"Carry each other's burden, and in this way you will fullfill the law of Christ." -Galations 6: 2

But lately, i feel like i am so full of flaws. and yes i know that no one is perfect, but it seems like im always the last one in the line. im always the one that needs to be encouraged, and im always the one that is directed. I feel like my life has no direction in what i can do. i am trying real hard to remind myself of how God made me in his image and i really need to be content and appreciate what he has given me. But each time i see my sister being so perfect, so devoted to God. it just drives me further away from contenment.